You accused me of judging you without knowing you, so I gave you a chance.
You asked for my trust.
You asked for my friendship.
I took the chance even though I was scared.
I thought I had found a special gift in you, but once again I was wrong.
What did I do so wrong to make you change your mind and just vanish from my life?
All I can do is shake my head, cry, and wonder.

When

It's said that time heals, but how long does it take?
Days pass and I still miss you as much if not more
The smallest things can bring you to the front of my mind,
and the tears flow.
I want to move forward, yet I seem stuck.
I don't want to lose any more of you than I already have.
I can still hear your voice: G'day my sweet love
I can still see you face behind my closed eyes
I miss you so much
When will I stop hurting so badly?
When will I not miss you so much?
When will I not feel this heavy sadness?

The Changes

Change is hard and upsetting
Anxiety sets in
Fearing the unknown
Hoping
Praying
Believing it will all be ok

Trust is so hard,
but it's all I have

Forever and Always

You said I was the most beautiful woman in the world both inside and out
You called me a princess
You said you loved me more than you had ever loved in your life

You made me feel beautiful for a time
You made me feel happy, something I knew little of
You showed me what it was like to be loved

You were so handsome
You were so sweet
You were so special

Thank you for the short time we had
I miss you
Forever and Always

Promises

You promised to love me forever
You promised me a wonderful life
You promised me we would be together
You promised me the moon and the stars
You promised me my happy ever after
You promised me at least 20 good years together

Why did you have to die

Invisible

In the middle of a crowd I stand, but no one sees me
In a silent room I speak, but no one hears me

I'm invisible, but I don't wanna be

In a small group I sit, but all alone
In a room where others speak I go unheard

I'm invisible, but I don't wanna be

Wake Up Call

I trusted completely trusted you
Blind trust that you were who you said you were
I ignored all the signs, all those who warned me
No, no I was not wrong
I was special
I was different
My loyalty was rewarded with lies
It was never your fault, always someone else to blame
But now the blinders removed I see the truth
And with a heart broken in a way no one understands
I will stand up, dust myself off, and walk away
You can't hurt me anymore